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  • Elise@beehaw.org
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    7 months ago

    Last weekend I finally had my hormones in order after more than two decades of dissociation and discomfort.

    It was like I woke up and the descriptions suddenly had a vividness, like someone upped the gain on my qualia. It’s hard to believe that this is what most of you feel every day. It’s such a privilege.

    I just kept smelling my spices and enjoying the view outside, and the feeling of cold air on my lungs was amazing. And I could finally just feel OK and relax. The creepiest sensation was being deeply connected to my body and the fear of death it gave me. It’s visceral. How do you guys even deal with this?

    • LallyLuckFarm@beehaw.org
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      7 months ago

      Congratulations! I’m so happy for you 💕

      Just vibe with how incredible it is to be you; it’s quality over quantity in my view. I deal with it by trying to be the best me I can be and celebrating the brief time I have.

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        7 months ago

        Thanks a lot!

        When all this stuff is sorted and straightened out I’m gonna make a move on that wood burning project we started ⭐