I mean I just want a friend to give me a hug and emphathise with me. But instead I had my own mother LAUGH about it. And shitty “therapists” reading from an instruction manual like a fucking robot. Fuck “Filial Piety”.

Everything I think of the word “China”, the first thing that comes up in mind is my abusive parents and older brother, and the government’s attempt to get rid of me, because I’m the “extra” one that wasn’t supposed to be born according to their vision of absolute totalitarian control, one child policy lolol they can’t even enforce their stupid laws. Fuck CCP.

I wanna just run away, but I’m too tired. The system is collapsing. Immigrants in the US are being purged. I don’t even have the mental capacity to handle a job. I need medications, but I keep getting pushed around like a ping pong, “you’re too fucked up for us to handle, here are a list of referrals”, fuck your “talk therapy”, I need to fix my chemical imbalance.

I really need to go back in time and just snap this Confucious motherfucker out of existance, stupid filial piety plagueing the world.