I know how you feel but we are alive for now. Just enjoy every bit of nature you can. Walks, bike rides, whatever is available in your area. If you have not already, don’t have kids, and just try to reduce, reuse, recycle to the level you can. Enjoy other simple things. Friends, food, and simple fun.
ironically I only use the free add supported ones except for amazon but thats more due to my wife.