I got shame with a sarcastic congratulations in my head, followed by berating myself for not doing the thing sooner since it would’ve been smaller and taken less time if I did it when I originally needed to

The fun part is being accosted about how forgetting to do something is not a valid excuse, and that I really don’t care about person {x} or priority {y}, because if I did then I should’ve done it already! 🙃

Depending on what high school I was from, a lot of former classmates in my first high school wouldn’t even recognize me since both my name and gender presentation are much different now.

I had to transfer partway into my high school years because the school admins had serious safety concerns for when I leave the property (it was mostly filled with aspiring gangstas, extreme homophobes and few decent people in the mix). Least to say, I was harassed and bullied over my behaviour pre-transition.

That’s good to hear, it definitely feels like my presentation does differ exactly like that- depends on the mood/day/circumstance.

That’s fair- I am slowly building a healthier way to be more aware of when I’m in either side of talking, but it is reassuring to see other peoples experiences as well

So much yes

Is it weird that I kinda have both?

I got diagnosed with ADHD at 25 , and I’ve been like 90% quiet most of my adult life. However I recall every now and then when a memory hits, I used to be suuuper energetic, talkative and all over the place overall as a kid.

Since my family thought that getting me mental help = being put into an asylum for life, I never got assessed and was instead chastised/shamed into not talking (and in parallel the regular kids would mock and tease in the school system) so I’ve sorta just got quiet which just got me more inwardly chaotic

Don’t worry, they have BRAND NEW PACKAGING to try and distract you while a few (or dozen) grams get shaved off the total weight posted

Simply Divine!

This is too real for me lol

My struggle is that I’ve sorta fallen out of my current friends group since I’ve found myself increasingly contradicting myself in order to make myself “fit in”

I’ve since been learning to be myself more and have at least 2 friends I keep in touch, but oof do I struggle to stay in regular contact.

Then there’s my desire to make friends that share similar interests and the motivation to go through with socializing is just not there 😅

I’ve held an interview with one of my former school bullies from highschool for a position under my team. I only had a suspicion when I came across the resume, but I just knew it was him when I saw his face on cam.

It was nice seeing him fumble over the curveball technical questions that I threw at him, and told HR that he wasn’t only a poor fit, but not to even send a follow up response l either.

Just gotta swap lead poisoning drinking water with checks notes Lead poisoning in drinking water, the air in the form of emissions and microplastics!

(I know lead was dropped from most gasoline in the 90s, but the effects linger. Also in some places there’s exemptions where small planes can use leaded gas to this day)

Furry sysadmin and trans girl reporting here lol