I’m the same way. I play music solely for fun, by myself. I love playing with others as well, but even in the times in my life when I was lucky enough to be able to do that I still would play music by myself. Common attitudes about music are really toxic imo. Music is at its best when it is free, live, amateur, and enjoyed alone or with close friends, not for an audience with outsized expectations based on the ubiquity of recorded professional music.

A certain wotc module has a level 2 party fight a suicidal enemy with Fireball in a small room. Also the fireball does necrotic damage just to make sure no one can resist it. Went exactly as you’d expect. I haven’t read the module myself so not sure if the DM messed something up or what. I thought it was hilarious but the other players all rage quit so that campaign ended there.

Also do not mix bleach and vinegar.

I wish I could go back and experience myself experiencing it, so I could see what aspects of my current self were there all along, what parts I picked up along the way, and exactly how those ideas were planted and grew.

Are any of these monster books actually good? The fact they don’t seem to have sample monsters makes me doubt it.