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    23 hours ago

    More I Hope my life gets Brighter

    After a bit of thought it doesn’t work like that. Pure hope that someday things will get better and waiting for a miracle to happen is a fool’s errand.

    The hope fuels action that I believe that someday that action will be worth it in the end. That all the work that I am putting in will bear fruit. (It actually was)

    Also the growth for the sake of growth is a cancerous behavior. Almost all cases that I saw someone obsesaing over growth in one domain was hiding or running away from some pain that they coudn’t handle.



  • By having hope, human mind can come up with better and better reasons to be hopeful about. It’s self-fulfilling prophecy.

    Almost exactly a year ago I have lost all hope. I was a husk of human being, Rotting away in my mothers attic. If not for freezing temperatures I would be homeless. I didn’t have any money for food.

    By slowly changing my social media to be more hopeful and less depressing. (Without toxic positivity that denies all the bad things that are) My thought patters started chnging. By working on my emotional health I started appreciating small things in life. I have begun to have small infrequent moments: “This is what I live for.” Things like that sterted boostingveach other and I improved my life by a mile.

    It took me years of hard work to be here, with eyes full of hope and a possibility of bright future ahead.

    Hope is an absurd thing. The belief that things will work out is neccesery to begin action and give your 100%. The belief that there is significant chance of failure will lead to failure; because why extend the effort if it all will be in vain.







  • I am mixing up a bit of ideas here. There is Satou the protagonist that has moral backbone with enough will power to not do anything. There is Hiro Ainana the author who chooses to write about how the Arisa is trying to rape him. And my human imperfect mind that has it’s own share of problems and struggles, and it twists my perception by hyperbole.

    In mushoku the character was horrible, but the author was decent to write great adventure. In here the character is good and author is decent enough to keep him good, but my mind just is on the wrong frequency and it resonates with the things that I don’t want to resonate with.

    (I was coding a game for a game jam for the whole week and the exhaustion has piled up in me that I neglected to keep my mind in check)