More I Hope my life gets Brighter

After a bit of thought it doesn’t work like that. Pure hope that someday things will get better and waiting for a miracle to happen is a fool’s errand.

The hope fuels action that I believe that someday that action will be worth it in the end. That all the work that I am putting in will bear fruit. (It actually was)

Also the growth for the sake of growth is a cancerous behavior. Almost all cases that I saw someone obsesaing over growth in one domain was hiding or running away from some pain that they coudn’t handle.

Love Conquers All

By having hope, human mind can come up with better and better reasons to be hopeful about. It’s self-fulfilling prophecy.

Almost exactly a year ago I have lost all hope. I was a husk of human being, Rotting away in my mothers attic. If not for freezing temperatures I would be homeless. I didn’t have any money for food.

By slowly changing my social media to be more hopeful and less depressing. (Without toxic positivity that denies all the bad things that are) My thought patters started chnging. By working on my emotional health I started appreciating small things in life. I have begun to have small infrequent moments: “This is what I live for.” Things like that sterted boostingveach other and I improved my life by a mile.

It took me years of hard work to be here, with eyes full of hope and a possibility of bright future ahead.

Hope is an absurd thing. The belief that things will work out is neccesery to begin action and give your 100%. The belief that there is significant chance of failure will lead to failure; because why extend the effort if it all will be in vain.

Rank 1. Would be Voyager 1

No more mynedays for now. ;-;

The parallel between lutz - tuli engagement and Rozmyne - Ferdinand engagement is astonishing. Although tuli loves Benno and elvira would have a field day writing that story.

Letzia is played like a fiddle by the lord of evil.

I am mixing up a bit of ideas here. There is Satou the protagonist that has moral backbone with enough will power to not do anything. There is Hiro Ainana the author who chooses to write about how the Arisa is trying to rape him. And my human imperfect mind that has it’s own share of problems and struggles, and it twists my perception by hyperbole.

In mushoku the character was horrible, but the author was decent to write great adventure. In here the character is good and author is decent enough to keep him good, but my mind just is on the wrong frequency and it resonates with the things that I don’t want to resonate with.

(I was coding a game for a game jam for the whole week and the exhaustion has piled up in me that I neglected to keep my mind in check)

Death March to the Parallel World Rhapsody vol 1&2

In other aspects this read was quite enjoyable. Some crumbs of overarching mystery. The MC that is overpowered but wants to hid his power. I am comparing it to mushoku tensei but Death March seems weaker as Rudeus was a morally bad character but here Satou is presented as morally good and “pure” but still has thoughts that aren’t good. IDK if I will pick up more volumes.

Waku Waku

I think I will pick up Death March so I could at least with clear conscience tell that Bookworm is the best.

I can really imagine highschoolers sticking a golden ball into a biology mannequin crotch.

Also writing and storyboarding was great this episode where seemingly random background conversations mirror the internal state of okarun.

Just read the whole thing that is translated.

I love that midway through the story it just lunches into an explanation on how to weld properly and I also love that the translator uses british slang.

Is zent under trug or raublat gaslighted him so much that he forgot that ferdinand doesn’t want the throne?

“You must learn to be more adaptable. In times of urgency, one cannot be mired in etiquette.” - I feel like this is another chekhov’s gun but I already forgot when it fires.

isn’t just an app

There is migaku a paid app that streamlines creating flash cards from sentences in YT and other videos. With ability to record audio + screenshots from relevant stuff that you watched.

I don’t use it but I heard good stuff about it.

Can you explain a bit more on what level are you on?

Do you know katakana + hirigana?

How many kanji do you know?

I also tried flashcards but the lack daily consistency was killing me and I switched to coprehensive input/immersion with very easy material.

Accomplishments of Duke’s Daughter vol 1&2 - This novel is really dated. It feels like the ideas ware taken from cold war era. The capitalism is the greatest invention and there is an enemy country that sends spies everywhere. I couldn’t imerse myself into it so I didn’t enjoy it.

EXP is Golden vol1 - standard power fantasy but the MC is a wet cat and doesn’t have any motivation to accomplish anything. She only does something if some random dude tells her to do it. Maybe it works in the games but not in the novel. Dull as ditch water.

Technically it could go into r/AnimeInOurWorld@reddit.com

What gambling does to a man.

A presumption that keeps me going.